Your words vividly describe your pain, I am ever so sorry people don’t agree with your decision to publish… but I personally think you’re a very brave and earnest human to share your pain with us, why do we get embarrassed by other peoples misery – we should embrace it just like all the other pretty pictures and hart warming stories you share with us, hell its every bit a part of life – it is the very essence of our being.

I am not a very Christian sole, but Christianity does mould me as a human and I don’t always turn the other cheek – but I do know the difference between hurting someone and fighting my corner, sorry the point I trying to get to, is that my beautiful Christian religion was my salvation, born of the suffering of my saviour, the Lords son Jesus Christ, why then do we just expect life to be a clinically sanitised version of half truths – I see you the whole person for you’re your pain, but if you should hide that pain from me, you unwittingly set me up to fail you as a friend and a Christian brother – love you man and may the Lord ease your pain, reach-out for he is there.

Richard.

At this point, my brother is in the most danger, because he doesn’t appear to grasp that Helen’s tortured exit from this world is likely to leave him without any means of support. There could well be NO money to distribute after she goes, and even debts to pay. I hope he has some kind of plan.

As for my mother, well, she’s in charge of herself. She either flips out completely, has a stroke, burns her trailer down, OR lets us help her. The first three are possible and likely imminent, the last one long gone under the bridge. It’s not my fault or anyone’s, although I do blame Arizona’s paranoid laws for much of the trouble we’ve had in dealing with this.

Amazingly, I’m fine. I needed to write about it, but I’m fine. And yes, long hair does help keep the ears warm!